led, you really are one of the best dragoons on the server for your level
it may not mean much now that you've quit, but i do keep track of what happens to my old friends now that i've quit playing. I've gone through some of what you're going through right now and it really sucks. You finally realize that all of the work and effort you've put into this game doesn't mean anything and the job you've chosen is actually looked down upon by other people. It leaves a horrible feeling inside of you and you know you can't really change it. I realized this a bit before you did and i got out before it was too bad. It's the reason why i've chosen some of the ways i've gone in this game, and you know what i'm talking about.
whenever i scaned my friendlist periodically, i always was a bit happier to see your name on the list, knowing that you were going for it and hoping you would make it in the end. It was something i couldn't do, and i wasn't willing to do. Playing for hours and hours on end, making parties for exp/items and going to do them, really aren't worth it for drg in the end. Even if you did make it in CKD, and i may be wrong on this, but you wouldn't do jack shit anyways. I talked to Itto about it many times when i was depressed and he really showed me the light in a sense. He said i should get out while i still could. I told him about how much i wanted to get into ckd and how awesome it would be, and he told me that it really isn't that awesome. All the glory people think about CKD isn't all it's cut out to be. It's another linkshell, with other members, who just happen to be higher and can do the "fun" things of the game. THe game isn't worth it to spend 100 days of your life to get to 75, when you aren't having fun the whole time.
If you really do want to start having a bit of fun in the game, let me know and i might be able to let you in on some secrets of my life and hook you up. Send me a PM and we can talk about it a bit, or email if that's preferred. I was just like you two months ago, and i really felt like the game had no meaning, but ive found it again and it was well worth the wait. No offense to any of you on this site, but you need to be hooked up with the right people my friend.
Let me know and we can talk about it... btw, i mad you didn't mention me in your post

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