Hello, it's been quite a some time that i've visited \(^^)/. I barely talk in forums, i hardly did when i was in CKD except for the private section to get information and such. So to many buddies of mine in CKD - my bad for not saying hi more often. Usually i /tell it to u anyway ~.~.
I recieved a tell from my buddy last night and he told me about this thread and how my name was being thrown around. Of course, i figured i might as well come and defend myself. /insert sarcastic yay
Yarr, you sure have a way with words. You always did

. And, a lot of what you wrote is true* but it's true with an asterik. "*" denotes that a lot of what you wrote was worded, gnarled, and contorted in such a way that fit your views and detract a bit from the actual facts. of course, this is typical whenever someone recounts their story. there are 3 sides to a story - your side, the other person's side, and the truth. Imma try my best to remain as objective as i can be.
Am i going to sit here and pick out each and lil' thing your wrote that was true* - nah i'm not. Largely b/c its 7am and im tired and you wrote so much. but, here's a quick small meaningless example - you claim that you never had anyone threaten to leave your ls as much as aiame did. Bro, reinheld used to leave the shell/threaten to leave the shell a lot. btw, rein no disrespect to you, i had to mention your name b/c it would be a pointless example without getting into specifics - my bad if ur offended. Ss used to have his bouts as well. SS much <3. i just had to use the name my bad.
Shiloh, i am actually heartbroken by what you had to say about me. I cant quote it exactly but it *seems* as if you are suggesting that i was "only around for event and loot" - ergo making me a loot whore. ... Ouch shiloh. Ouch. Shil, do you even know the things i got from CKD? i can count them on one hand shil - Joyeuse, Zenith Mitts, VV ring, Genbu Shield, Suppanomi. and out of the 5 things i walked away with from ckd... i had to win lots on Joyeuse, VVring, and Genbu shield. gilzz was nice enuff to pass on mitts since i had money at the time to craft them. (this was during halloween). the other drops i had to lot 900+ in order to win - well genbu shield was lotted agaisnt katrianna and me so that dont count. VVring - i was one button away from passing and letting yarr keep it but kayne and ilma and even yarr said keep it. yarr didnt mind. Basically what im suggesting is - you really cant accuse me of being a loot whore when i hardly have "loots". the ONLY reason why i have those items is b/c i was very blessed to roll high enuff to win. But still, i was one of the more active participants of CKD when it came to events. Hell i think even yarr would admit to this fact. so the comment u made about how i just showed up for events and loots ... i was busy lvling SMN - are you suggesting i couldnt lvl my SMN while CKD was doing nothing? -- that hurts bro. it hurts more when i think back to all those times i did nice things - like get ruby rank10, loan money to kayne so he can get his togi, gave some gil to ilma b/c we lost his orb on a BC run, help to stay around after dynamis events to refresh ppl, help rein help his buddy get eyes for the hakutaku and countless other things i cant recall atm. i mean those few lines u wrote really seem to wrap up my existence in ckd as nothing more as "being around when events happened". But, it shows a nice example of how history get recreated - im really sorry u hold me in this esteem shiloh.
Ruby/SS - Thank you guys for posting what appears to be the most objective posts - devoid of emotions/passions/ and any other subjective stuff. Ruby did mention something that i felt should be clarified - in a private thread i used the word "help" a lot when i was confronted with the issue of camping with monarchy. When i was asked about it, i was nothing short of 100% truthful about what i was doing it and why. i was helping my buddies. plain and simple. they had 9 members in that LS and they wanted to try genbu and i said sure ill help - no biggie. I do fault myself for not clearing up assumptions i made tho...
for example "sure i'll help = 1) im not lotting on any of ur loot aside from an occasional materials drop
2) Once your LS is big enuff to stand on ur own two feet i am leaving.
the second assumption, that i made but never made apparent to ckd, might have been my downfall. i didnt make that fact explicit enuff. did ckd really think i was going to routinely kill gods with an HNM ls thats 20 deep - it seems so, but i wasnt. i was "helping" my friends b/c they had like 9-11 ppl and barely could kill off suzie. yarr confronted me and gave me the ultimatum - he didnt try to reason with me, he didnt try to work things out he just broke the pearl. During this period me and yarr were in constant /tell hell and he was one of the most unpleasant ppl i ever met. his attitude was a strong reason why i didnt say "i choose ckd". he was nothing short of pompious and over zealous. Also, yarr openly admited to me that "this wouldnt be a big deal if b would just return the staff". so as far as me helping my buddies kill genbu - even yarr admitted that wasnt that serious lol.
Eternus, I notice that u seem to know A LOT about how our lotting system works in Monarchy. bro, i welcome u to send me a /tell so we can talk about it. u started cursing at our LS and it seems like ur deeply bothered by how we run things. Whoever ur informant is, which is one of our own, i think even they too dont understand it. seriously bro, send me /tell b/c i really wanna clear up any confusion. i like u - or used to. i was one of the ppl that spoke highly of u during the application process. i will admit that in the very beginning of the Ls, lotting was a bit iffy, largely b/c how do u define "who is more deserving" when u just start out, but ultimately it was nothing serious. considering that we kill the gods daily - how much can someone cry that they didnt get a.adj legs? we worked thru kinks and i seriously think we have figured out how things will get done from now on. remember, we're a maturing ls and we're still working through our own internal mechanics and such.
here's an example of how lotting works : Auger and Icy both can use byakko pants. icy joined our ls about 3 weeks ago - auger has been part of the ls 3 months ago. pants drop - auger is allowed to lot, with others, and icy is asked not to lot. why is icy asked not to lot? b/c u earn ur keeps. icy didnt kill ulli enuff, or spend devastating 50h+ camping stones since he's new. Is that "fair" - if u ask auger she'll say ur dame right its fair. to me it seems fair. icy had no problems with it. the next pair that drop icy will be entitled. no love lost. if icy has a problem he will say something.
Hcc u said something but u said a lot and i cant remember im so tired. I've always respected u - and despite the amemet camp thing - i think that was just a black hole in our past and i hope that we can forgive and forget and move on with our lives in the game (but it does seem that we have). but if u have any questions man ur 100% free to /tell me. Im not here to argue - argueing equates to nothing more than shouting and yelling and in the end nothing is said and no ones mind is changed. Anyone who wants to discuss this, maybe be enlightened (i know i have after reading some posts good and bad).. send me a /tell.
Hcc- it was ur dynamis remark. im not sure if u were there when this happened but immediately the day after i was kicked from ckd i was in sky camping water with monarchy. so we're camping and ckd comes along. and yarr sends me a /tell "i thought u werent going to camp agaisnt ckd" (he pulled this quote of mine from a private section thread). i replied "yes, thats true under the assumption i am still a ckd member. if im not a ckd member then that no longer holds"..he replies "thats right, ur not a ckd member. so blah blah u cant do ckd dynamis". after he said that i said it in /say to let other CKD members know how childish his remark was. i told yarr to send me a /tell when u grow up. unfortunately i cant receive such a /tell since i black listed him long ago ;/. so as to not going to dynamis - i was banned dude. not my decision.
So with all that said and done imma go to bed and pray that this sillyness just stops.

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