I wish I was in love. I've always wanted to find that special person, but I haven't really yet.
I believe I was in love with my ex-bf. I don't believe you have to be an adult to know what love is, because love is a feeling, and everyone can feel all emotions. He was one of the few people that I could act completely myself with. I could tell him anything, just like I would tell a best friend, and I knew he would always be honest to me about everything. I could act like a total tard around him, and he'd just laugh at me/with me instead of thinking I'm weird. Sometimes I'd be like "haha sorry for being an idiot" and he'd be like "nah I thought it was cute". I really loved the way he could make me laugh when I was having a bad day, and the way he'd make fun of me to my face(made me crack up too). Well he changed, and I guess I changed, so that's why it ended. We were together a long time though.
Ever since I was 12 yrs old, I always had a crush on a family friend of mine. We've known each other just about our whole lives, but I never really spoke to him the way I do now, till then. Problem is, he's 4 years older than me. I'm 16, and he's 20, so even though my parents love him and have known him since he was a baby, nothing will happen anytime soon. He lives in another state, and I only see him once a year, so basically our whole friendship is over aim. Although, I'm moving near him this summer. When we were younger(both teens), he'd say things like I was cute.. and that when we grow up I should marry him lol. I tell him things that I can't tell anyone else, and he tells me the same. Now that we're older, our whole "crush" thing has kinda stopped, and he has a girlfriend that he really loves, but I do still love him, and he tells me he loves me too. I'm not sure how I love him though, it's more of a friendship thing now. I think that crush thing is gone but it could very well come back.
When I move this summer, I hope I find someone special, and someone near my age. So hard for me 'cause I always like the more mature guys. There has to be someone, even if it's only one person, who is what I'm looking for. I'm not picky like he has to be perfect, just a perfect match for me.
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